The Game

Let’s play a little game,
It’s call deception and betrayal,
Where envy and self centerness is the key..

To come out as the most celebrated,
One must deny himself,
Betray the world of most,
And completely drench in sin..

Complete the circle of courses,
By doing dances with corpses,
Hail the wolves of destiny,
Under the full moon in mutiny..

Novenia – 23.01.2011 – 21.45

Somewhere In The Corner

I'm sitting here now, silently waiting..
In the depths of thoughts and mix emotions,
In the sense of belonging but not yet longed,
In a somewhat one way judgement of unfairness.

People passes by, glimpses occasionally out of curiosity,
Flickering through the pages of the book I hold in hand,
Merely just a way to let the time passed by..

Some distance voices taking me aback,
Of an appointment that I should come across in time.
Regular faces of blank stares again and again..

The never ending gaze of an elderly has taken me to the future,
Will I be the same like her?
Or will I just be still in this moment and don't care less about the future?

A swish of light air touches my bare skin,
I shall wake up from these trancending of the brain.
As I gaze that face written with life experience,
I said goodbye to the white and blue table of anticipation..

Novenia - 12.05.2011 - 20.33

The Lady Of The Wolf

As dark as the night could be,
I’m listening to the howling of the wolf..
Far in the distance beyond the grave of mankind,
Weeping sorrow of the hound tear the flesh of my heart..

Where the wound exposes the dark sweet thick blood,
Dripping nervously when the wolves picked up the scent..

A mixture of taste on my tongue,
Where shall I find the remedy for my soul?

On with the whimpering prey!
Let them devour on the weak darkling creatures,
The dark lady will be dancing..
To the rhytmn of pure ecstasy for the new born disciples..

Novenia – 09.08.2010 – 21.37

The Answer

When darkness arrives..

I can see you gleams in the brightest light,
Reassuring that you'll always be there,
To wash away the black,
To brighten up my days,
To catch me when I tripped over..

But then..

How do I claim my expectations?
I won't find them in the gentle breeze of the night's wind..
Not in the tide current flow of the vast ocean,
Not even in the howling of the lonely wolf at the peering moon..

You have the answer, I'm sure!
The answer that will keep me on the edge of insanity..
Let that answer add the complexity of us..

Novenia - 30.03.2010 - 1.35

The Question

If the warm air could speak a thousand words,
Would they listen too?

If a goddess could sing such wonderful tunes,
Would she cry in the same tunes too?

If you’re so sweet and caring,
Would you hurt me too?

Questions.. Questions.. Questions..

Playing in the merciful minds..
Should I obey or disregard them?
Should I compile or dissemble them?
Should they be scattered or be communed?

Questions, oh.. Questions!!!

Novenia – 30.03.2010 – 11.20

The Muse

A muse standing at the entrance of the deep forrest,
Questioning everything in her mind whether she should go ahead or stood still..
For those questions are playing tricks on her,
Create illusions that makes her believe in the unreal..

She can't make further decisions..
Where should she go?
To the great unknown darkness in front of her?
Or to the never ending sadness she had left behind?

She has made up her mind..
Of the later should be just left forgotten..
A future awaits for her,
No matter how dark and uncertain as the swift of the southern wind..

She makes a step forward and opens her arms to welcome whatever comes her way..

Novenia - 3.3.2010 - 1.17

Shoshanna Dreyfus

Tears and blood on my face,
I held my breath,
Covering my nose with my bloody palm..
Those are not my blood..
Those are the fresh red stains from my sister,
My once beloved sister that loves to run about on the field,
My sweet little angel that comes running, when I reached home from the farm..
No more sweet laughter, no more little giggles when I tickle..
That cold stiff faint smile, adorn her now blood covered cheeks..
Why did you have to go so soon?

Another loud bangs of bullets..

My papa and mama!
You’ve departed now..
Move to another dimension, toward a better destination, they said..
Farewell my guardian of the soul, Farewell my goddess of heart..
May you finally find your happiness..
Together, as you laid now, with your blood covered hands intertwined..
I love you mama, I love you papa!

Bangs and bangs followed..

A sigh was all that left..
I’m all alone now..He’s gone..
My hero, the one I always count on..
The arms that used to hold me during thunderstorm..
Now fall to the ground helplessly..
Goodbye my brother..
You’ll stay in my heart forever..

I hear nothing now..

I’m numb..

If those bullets doesn’t kill me..The stillness in this room under the floor WILL!!

I picked whatever left of me, crawled silently towards the opening..
I can see the grass..green and lush..as if asking me to run with them..
I must run to freedom! I must slip away! I must fled!
I ran! I ran! I ran!
I didn’t look back..no hopes of returning..
My family are merely a memoir now..

Then I heard those words..
Those foul words of a killer..

“Goodbye Shoshanna!! Have a great life..”

I ran faster..
On a silent oath of a bitter revenge..


(My interpretation of Shoshanna Dreyfus’ feelings when she witnessed her whole family got killed in front of her eyes, and she’s the only one managed to escape from the massacre. – Inspired by the movie: Inglorious Basterds, 2009)

Novenia – 19.01.10 – 10.44